I'm Not 16 Anymore!

• Good news...this week I have exercised four times! It's been pretty modest and not strenuous. Went for a walk in the park twice and did a tape twice.
• As for my age, with the tape I did today, I realized I can't do it like I did when I was 16. It's amazing I did it back then with such effort and, well, force. Today I modified it quite a bit. Although, there was one move I did and I felt the worst knee pain...and in my "good" knee...(uh oh lol). I won't be doing this tape very often. I needed a break from Walk Away The Pounds, and it's kind of cold out to go for a walk.
• My night time eating is sort of improving too. Several nights this week I have not gone hog wild with going to the kitchen and overeating. And it showed on the scale...as of last weigh I lost two pounds. It is a problem though, and it has not gone away. But this week I have been managing it better. Let's keep this momentum up!
  

Small Changes

Today I decided to start making small changes. I wrote down "What can I do today to be a healthier and better person?" I'm going to ask myself this everyday and see what happens. This is the only way to be able to change.

For example, today I went for a walk. The park is relatively flat, and I'm so out of shape that I broke a sweat. Also at dinner I put down my fork between each bite and chewed each bite at least 20 times. No seconds.

I have a part-time, temporary job starting next week (YAY!). I think when I get back each evening, I'll do my old exercise tape. Don't want to go for a walk in the dark.

Hopefully I will be able to make some changes. I am just fed up with my weight and appearance. It's time.

Resolution Defeat

I can't do it...all the goals I set. Ehow.com says too many goals=failure. I'm three days into 2010 and already haven't started working on any goals.

So instead...I'm going to start when I'm ready. Maybe try one reasonable, doable goal at a time.

I just overdo it with goal setting and always end up short.

It is the middle of winter...I do better in warmer months.

If things get worse, I won't be posting my weight on Wednesdays (unless it's decent).

And there's already a chunkychick.net. :(

Weigh Day...More Ugliness

193.8...Christmas weight gain. Ugh.

Let the Quest for Health begin!

Xmas Backlash and 2010 Resolutions

• The Holidays certainly have a tendency to bring out the worst in people. This holiday I actually witnessed racism from a couple members of my family. The first incident I said "That's not nice," which didn't really do much, and after the second incident I simply got up, went in my room, and stayed there and took a nap. It was so offensive (about Obama) and I got really pissed off. Racism in any circumstance is unacceptable, and it really bothers me. And unfortunately a few people in my family are dumb enough to be racist.
• I also did not receive a card or a gift from one family member, who I usually get something from, and which really hurt my feelings. Not to mention, she told another relative right in front of me that she gave my half-sister $100! WTF?! I did absolutely nothing wrong to her...I've been nice! And all my parents got was a cheap bottle of wine...and they bend over backwards doing favors for her all year. She is thoughtless and selfish, plays favorites, and honestly, I wish my parents would cut her out. I know I am.
• On a happier note, 2010 is coming up, and I have some special New Years Resolutions to share with everyone as I begin my 2010 Quest for Health:
• Start up exercising again. Do the tapes as often as possible.
• Eat for health and make healthy choices while eating out.
• I will cut out soda gradually and only drink it on special occasions and while dining out.
• With cutting out soda, naturally I will drink more water. Luckily for Christmas I got three eco-friendly water bottles which kick some environmental ass!
• With eating for health, definitely cut back on sweets and desserts.

That's all I can think of for now. Hopefully I can follow through on this and make progress! I don't want to be chunky anymore!

Weigh-In Wednesday: The Ugly Truth

I gained 5.2 pounds, making my weight 192.2 pounds. This is higher than when I started this blog. :(

I have been eating poorly, going out to eat a lot, and drinking. And this week being Christmas is not going to help. So much for the health train...

2010: Quest For Health! More to come...

Alcohol

When I drink enough, all I want to do is eat. That was the case this past Wednesday night. I had 3 Smirnoff Ice's (cheeleader beer lol) and went food crazy. Sooo now I know not to overdo it on the alcohol so I don't overdo it on the food.